2.17.2006

It's been a while ...

I guess so much has happened lately and so much time has past that the thought of blogging has become overwhelming to me. So overwhelming. I've started a few posts in the last couple of weeks, but I always end up reaching for the backspace and inevitably, back to square one --- and wondering if blogging is the right thing for me. I look back at some of the posts of the past months and it truly has been such a relief to express these things ... but at what cost? I'm finding that it is difficult to be in the blogging world and still be engaged in my surroundings, as well. Does anyone else find it hard? At times I feel as if I pour so much investment into sharing my heart and thoughts here that I have a hard time investing elsewhere. The e-mails to reply to, the people that I WANT to reply to, are piling up again ... I'm not sure if the people I love know they are loved ... and am I really loving them if only in thought? How can it be love if not conceived to action? So ..... I'm just thinking things over. I am somewhat confident that this will not be my last post, but some things have to change. Just one last thing ..... in my language class we talked about blogging and how it is connecting more people than ever before; but we are dangerously and painfully more isolated as a people than ever before. I wonder if it's true.